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Damn shit, how long have I left this place? LoL, I thought I left for good!
Well, I guess I would still love to have a place to air out..... So I'm back as a normal girl, and hope that will not become abnormal once again when I return here.. I have been receiving therapy and medication for my 'illness', so now, still coping with it...
I just have to live with it.... it seems not to be a choice at all XD
Okie then, hi, people who are still around there, I'm back!
Now crazy over DBSK's new album Mirotic...
Chat with ya people soon.
Love,
xamosy
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- Music:Mirotic
I haven't been updating like... I don't know.... quite long...
Well, I'm rehabilitating... getting well, as the doctor say, and now, I back to my normal mood. Listening to quite a lot of korean songs as well as jap ones. Loved them as always! XD
Well, how are you, my friends? Alive out there? I hope so XD!
Ah... have to go, will be back to update tomorrow,
- Location:Living room
- Mood:
happy - Music:Jap music
Well, how come I'm like... no feelings? Is it because I don't lack money, that's why I don't feel especially excited and happy?
But, I'm still glad to have money to spend. After all, I will be able to buy things that I like without asking from my parents.
Stressful life... It seems that if I want to get a long rest I will have to wait for quite some time before I can do so... I hope to save enough money to get into University and study. But, to be true... I don't know if I will be studying the same course...
Rest... now I finally understand how important it is to have rest... I did not once regret the time I spend during holidays. It was the most beautiful and peaceful time I had. Life need to go on... so, I will just take things as it comes...
It seems that I'm asking for too much... XD
- Location:Living room
- Mood: cheerful
- Music:Jap music
And that was pure torture!!
XD, well, Harry Potter book 7 is out now! But I think I will wait till the prices drop before buying, or else it is just too expensive. So everyone, please don't tell me the ending or whoever that might die. That will really spoil my eagerness to read the book. XD!
Oh, work is so tough... I'm so tired these days... /fainting/
And I'm working six days a few... most people only work five days a week... how bad can this get?
Anyway... it don't matter anymore.... Tange, I will be passing you the next chapter of A Game of Love later,
- Location:Living room
- Mood: calm
- Music:Jap music
| Your Kiss is Black |
 Your kisses are amazing. You put a lot of effort into your kissing technique. You are a perfectionist, and you never leave any kissing detail to chance. When you're kissing, you like to be in charge. You don't enjoy someone else taking the lead. You know you're the best kisser. In fact, you're often disappointed by how other people kiss. Kissing Type: Thoughtful People See Your Kisses as: Amazingly unreal You Kiss Best With: A Pink Kisser Stay away from: A Green Kisser |
O.o We belong to the same type of kisser? XD!
- Location:Living room
- Mood: calm
- Music:Jap music
Oh, I'm starting work in one day's time... it will be my prison, my living hell...
Where is my freedom?
I'm at the pits of author block again... all my musings left me again, and I'm stuck again at square one, so, I proceeded on to watch One Piece, and had been watching it for nearly one week.I'm so dead... Nothing else to talk about actually, because the thought of going to work makes me sick... so maybe after I start work, I will get better.
I'm now freaking emotionless... not enthusiastic about anything... what the hell is wrong with me?
- Location:Living room
- Mood:
bored - Music:Jap music
And guess what? The belt is black in color! There are various colors, and I got black! Yeah!!
( A note for Tange )
Well, recently my uncle has been using the computer late at night till morning, and it really diminished my time for typing fics, which made me not so happy, but, looking on the bright side, at least I can rest my eyes. I did a family map and rough outline of the fic last night, putting all my important notes in it so that I will not forget. And I'm very pleased with it actually, although it kind of wasted a lot of my time....
Two more weeks and I will be starting work.. I can't believe it... Time really flies...
- Location:Living room
- Mood: cheerful
- Music:Jap music
I will make sure to enjoy myself tomorrow. XD!
Ok, back to the topic that frustrates me... I hate the story of Little Mermaid. Not the Walt Disney one, but the true story where Little Mermaid became foam in the end.... I absolutely, totally hate that. I don't know why, maybe I will never understand. They say that true love sacrifices... but why does the Mermaid have to die? It's the Prince that is the foolish one... maybe the Mermaid is also another foolish one.
I totally hate it, because the storyline caused a very huge disturbance in me. I feel pain and sadness for the Mermaid... and why am I suddenly complaining? Because I just heard a song about the story of the Mermaid.
I feel that it's sad... very sad for someone not to realize. The Mermaid thought that it is her good fortune to be able to love the Prince, to get to see him, know him, for 3 days, and finally, to die for him,
But, what is the story trying to teach? That one person can fall in love till he/she can die for the person? To show that love is sacrificial?
Maybe I'm a selfish person in nature... or maybe, I see the Mermaid in myself, it is myself that I hate. I wanted to change something, but it is not in my ability to change, and in the end, I follow the destined route... maybe, what I hate is the myself who is helpless....
Oh, forget it... I'm just being emotional again....
- Location:Living room
- Mood:
bitchy - Music:Jap music
Hehe, Tange, I just posted you my new fic. Enjoy!
O.o A new fic from me on Yuugi's birthday... I think I'm someone who likes special events.
A few days ago I saw a pair of earrings with the alphabet "S" and "M", each for one ear. It looks funky, I mean the words. I want it!! To walk down the streets with those two words... I think I'm crazy....
Maybe I will let one of my characters wear those funky
I want to live in the world that is not of real life... if real life is like holiday everyday, then I don't mind living in it, but the fact and truth is that real life sucks most of the time...
I'm kind of envious of the characters from manga and anime, they seem so carefree, not a lot of responsibilities... /sighs/
Life will be great is everything is a dream...
- Location:Living room
- Mood: cheerful
- Music:Jap music
I can't believe all these are happening, and as always, Holo is there to say about her views again, which caused me to laugh my ass off at her commands and her weird sense of humor, which I loved so much.
Oh, I finished a few chapters of my new fic.... which was written half a year... or one year ago, and I finally have some hopes in moving on.
Oh Tange, do give me your e-mail so that I can send you.
Oh, if I did not remember wrongly, it's Yuugi's birthday right? XD! It's 4 June here now, as I am writing this entry.
There's so much things happening recently, fics are getting more and more difficult to write... /sighs/
I have 3 more weeks of piano lessons, 3-4 more weeks of belly dancing and samba, before all end and I will have to go to work in irregular hours. I will miss my freedom and my activities... when will I be able to be so free again when I work?
- Location:Living room
- Mood: cheerful
- Music:Jap music
I just can't believe it, I stare at the blank page and got disgusted... what is wrong? The style? The language, or is it myself?
I fear that if this goes on I will be out of the fandom soon...
Watched the Pirates of Caribbean 3 on 24 May when it first air here, it was one great show, loved the ending, but feel kind of sad...
Tomorrow's holiday... haven't though of how to spend it.... oh, I found a job, will be starting work one month later...
Well, as for now, I will go back and continue to stare on my blank page... maybe something will pop out. I already finish one chapter of another fic... hope that really something will pop out for the second chapter, cos I like the idea of this current fic on vampires.
- Location:Living room
- Mood: bitchy
- Music:Jap music
T.T
XDDD... but that woke me up. She rambled like a crazy agitated fangirl, and I adored her for that. Not a lot of people give good critics, and she really give me one good critic on the way I 'unresponsibly'
But, everything worked out well after that. I decided to start writing fics again, which I hope will not be
Well, last tuesday, I went to learn belly-dancing. It was my first lesson and I was really surprised when they say they will be teaching the orient style, which means, Egyptian traditional belly-dance. I was soo happy!! It was really fun, and I can see what's the alluring part when people writes about Yugioh with belly dance.
It is really sensual and sexy. There is a lot of meaning behind each steps, and I find it a really beautiful dance that shows a female's beauty using eyes, movement and her body. No wonder Pharaohs are mesmerized with belly dancers. XD!
O.o I wonder if belly dance should be included in OAOL's plot....
Yeah, tomorrow is the last day of attachment!! I'm soo looking forward to it! I had prepared gifts for the people where I'm attached at... /sighs happily/
Going to sleep now, catch up with you guys later!
- Location:Living room
- Mood: happy
- Music:Jap music
O.o Recently received one of my fans (Sansi, a writer whom I love) on a review thing and she asked me why my fics are all deleted. She says that it's a shame if I'm going to quit writing...
Well, it's not that I'm quiting... it's just... you know... Holo will understand... /sighs/
But to be true, I'm glad someone is concern about whether I'm alive or dead XD.
Tange, are you alive out there? If I'm going to ask you to beta my fics in future, will you be free?
Yeah! One more week and I'm free! Holidays are coming, and I'm rising from the tomb to restart on my fics! I have started now, but I don't know if I will complete one chapter and later don't write anymore... so it's on the hold. I'm kind of a perfectionist, so if the fic don't go the way I want, I would rather not continue.
/Yawns/ I'm going to sleep now, come back later to update more... goodnight ^-^
- Location:Living room
- Music:Jap music
Well, no surprise... I don't know when I will be updating, and no further reviews come in, so I guess those readers forgot about me. XD!
I will just have to wait 2 more weeks before I can really crack my head and start writing any fic, because by then, I will have 2 months of holiday!!
That will be
I will be coming back more often with my nags two weeks later XD.
To be true, it's hot here... sometimes raining, sometimes sunshine... but mostly
I guess it will be getting hotter a few weeks later as it is getting to mid-May and June, the hottest season of the year.
- Location:Living room
- Mood: calm
- Music:Jap music
But none of my friends, except one, remembered my birthday... I was kinda sad... but never mind, my family remembers, so it's alright....XD
I received a bracelet from my sisters, a punky type one, with round and pointed buckles on it. I totally love it! Hehe... I'm really a fetish on bracelets and special, unique stuff ^-^
And what I totally love about it was that the bracelet fit very nicely on my wrist! The others that I bought was kind of loose. O.o I'm starting to think maybe I'm the type who likes leather which is tight-fitting and glue to the body....
Well, I'm
I had a cheesecake for birthday! It was fun yesterday, but the bad thing was every time it's my birthday, I'm always on attachments... /sighs/
I just love fridays...
Finally some rest... XD
- Location:Living room
- Mood: cheerful
Eg: Vampire?
Well, this question just cross my mind. Would I be happy, sad, lonely, laughing and jumping with joy on my immortality, thinking about how to spend my very long life, or slowly becoming numb and emotionless as time goes by, becoming more and more like a true living corpse?
Hehe, I was thinking of writing a fic of the undead since my holidays are coming in 3 weeks time. So I would love to gather information from different people's opinion, and thus, those opinions can be part of the characters in my fic XD.
Life for me is going well as usual. Two days later will be my long-awaited birthday!! XD!
O.o I shouldn't be that happy when I'm only getting
I have learnt today that I need to practice on my patience and ability to forgive... some people have just been so rude that I was on the verge of crying in anger...
But, I control my temper well, because I did not shout, I only show my ultimate very unpleased look...
I find that this is really very unhealthy, because I'm controlling my anger inwardly, and it makes me really very uncomfortable and self-blaming.
But so far, I'm pleased to say that no one has succeeded in making me blow my top off... or am I really too
- Location:Living room
- Mood: calm
- Music:Jap music
Yeah!! I'm going to continue my piano lessons tomorrow! Great, after 2-3 years of stopping in piano, now I can finally get back on it! XD!
Well, my headache for these days is that whether I should go University or work in future. I will be finishing my Diploma soon, and I'm thinking of getting a Degree... but... I don't know, quite a few hospitals are recruiting me, so I don't know how to pick...
If possible, I would love to study forever... at least I don't have to think so much.
Nowadays I reading on vampire novels. Not bad, quite a lot of fun stuff, with possessiveness and light and dark, and other interesting stuff. It gave me some ideas of fic-writing. But... thinking of writing is easy, when it comes to actual writing, I will stare at the computer for quite some time and motivation does not come to me
Kinda sad right?
Alright, going to sleep now, very tired... eyes closing... see you guys later XD! Miss you all!
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- Mood: calm
- Location:Living room
- Mood: depressed
3 years go by, and it's time I'm going to graduate. A few more months later I will be graduating from high school, either entering workforce or university.
How long have I depart from LJ? I don't remember how long already... but it seems that real life is as busy as it can be to get me to depart from LJ. XD!
A few days ago had dumplings with my friends at their house. Had lots of fun and took lots of photos. Now, well, studying my ass off, exams coming again... T.T
O.o why is it that every time I update at LJ is when I'm having exams?
Life is so troublesome...
- Location:Living room
- Mood: amused
On the twelfth day of Christmas, 
xamosy sent to me...
xamosy sent to me...Twelve gothatheartholos drumming
gothatheartholos drummingEleven rikainiels piping
rikainiels pipingTen mahoganyxskies a-leaping
mahoganyxskies a-leapingNine yamitanges dancing
yamitanges dancingEight macabre_realitys a-milking
macabre_realitys a-milkingSeven pharaohatemu5s a-swimming
pharaohatemu5s a-swimmingSix comics a-laying
Five fa-a-a-anfics
Four vcds
Three cds
Two dvds
...and an atemu in an archeology.
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- Mood: calm
- Music:none
